mas

i'm watching the angelina jolie interview on cnn. i like what she's done and i like what she's doing. she's doing what we all should be doing: giving back, keeping the cycle going.

i go a little bit crazy every summer. it's a little bit because i don't have a purpose, and maybe i'm a little too unfocused and unmotivated to develop focus and motivation. that's not an excuse.

there are too many things i feel right now. i talked to my best friend from fifth grade online tonite until yahoo killed us. catching up, we talked about her kids and her husband. i felt left out. i feel left out of real life. i feel like i'm living a television show, a book, completely unworthy of reality. i'm standing just on the outside where no one can see who i really am.

per something, i keep people away by being a bitch. i want someone to have big expectations for me. i need to work on developing a person i like.