Friday, February 21, 2014

2/21/2014 07:35:00 AM
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Thursday, September 26, 2013

9/26/2013 07:11:00 AM
P!nk:  ever wonder 'bout what he's doin'?

Me:  no.  it involves his mama's vagina, for sure. he either is twiddling it, wanting to be back inside it, or wanting to be it. 
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Saturday, August 31, 2013

8/31/2013 12:49:00 PM
Last nite was the first time the depression has crept into my dreams. I dreamed of my mom, of the passage of time. My doctor prescribed Seroquel and last nite I took my first dose. Today I am extremely dizzy and tearful and ready to pop off at any moment. I've never taken such a strong drug. This morning I took Limictal as well, as it was prescribed. I prefer recreationals to how I feel right now.  Continue reading →

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

8/13/2013 09:43:00 PM
I think the thing I miss most about being in a relationship is having someone beside me in bed. My dogs are lovely, but they're not comforters; they're comfortees. Comfortors?

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Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Wandering vs. Wondering

6/19/2013 09:59:00 PM
I absolutely love this time of year!  And I'm sitting outside, listening to the crickets, looking at the stars, thinking about all I've done to better my home, and I'm doing this ALONE. And while sitting here, a question slid into my mind. Do I really feel that I don't deserve companionship, and I think that feeling is rooted deeply into my being. And I've got to fix that. I think that's why I'm such a loner. Because I feel that I don't deserve someone beside me. That I don't deserve. That I'm not good enough. And I am. Just the way I am. But I'm evolving. Tomorrow I'll be a better version myself. I will.  Continue reading →

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

i'm just floating

6/12/2013 06:07:00 PM
so this afternoon was the first time i'd seen my counselor since i was "outed" for "using" and i got what amounted to an hour-long lecture.  counselors seem always to fall down.  i refuse to let this circulate around drug use, rather than why i use.  we'll see how my next visit goes.

also!  i love all my children!  they were smacked really hard in the ass when they were canceled.  i thought daytime was just dying out.  but they're back!  two years later and they're online.  two episodes a week.  20 minute episodes at that.  a lot more risque material and language.  (a girl gave a really hot guy a blowjob today!  and he came.  on camera!)  a lot of old characters are back.  dimitri was back today.  but i don't get how dixie could possibly be the grandmother to a high schooler.  i think all my children is having the last laugh by beginning something new.  online tv's where it's at! 

also, last years derecho was june 29.  this year, i think we're going to have one on june 12.  i just hope we keep electricity through all this!  ouch!  Continue reading →

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

6/04/2013 11:40:00 AM
the church was cool inside. 

that's the only part of me new novel that i have written.  it's the first sentence.  : )  Continue reading →