More Hot Photos

Here's a pic I took with my new camera. It's the "view" from our bedroom window. Fascinating, aye?

This is our big, beautiful Christmas tree. Ain't she a doll?

Thoughts

Driving home, an automatic puzzle unfolded before me. My long-term thoughts of self-doubt were sucked through the ventilation system and left lying there on the highway, being pummeled by tire after tire. I know who I am, and I know who I've been. Standards are marvelous. For you, for me. The right words won't come but, when they do, I hope you take them to heart. (If they apply, of course.)

Pics

=) Do-dad let me take her pic. Sorta.



And here's Frog, since I haven't posted him in awhile.

i kinda need to p, but it's kinda like i don't want to get up.

when you want it, it goes away too fast
times you hate it, it always seems to last
just remember when you think you're free,
the crack inside your fuckin' heart is me

Pictures

Spaghetti Sauce, who makes it difficult to take a good pic, since she's so fucking scared of lights.


Neat, cartoonish pic of Elizabeth.


My big, gay afghan I've been crocheting...

i got money now

there's a boy in my class who comes from an absolutely horrible home. i know that's, sadly, not very uncommon. it's not that there's consistent physical abuse, or any physical abuse as far as i can tell. the family is just oblivious to what it's like to lead anything remotely close to a positive existence. the boy has no guidance, no structure, no discipline, no love. he has no positive role models in his family, and he spends so much time trying to get people to like him. and this usually comes out in a way that makes people completley dislike him!

today when my class came back from math, all the kids were telling me about how well he'd done in math. they kept telling him over and over that they were proud of him. i just felt so fucking good to see all my kids encouraging his good behavior and all his effort because people usually ignore the positive and focus on the negative. after all the kids had left, i was talking with the math teacher and i completely started to tear up. i was thanking her for absolutely rocking this kid's world! he so very much deserves it! everyone deserves to feel they're special and wanted. kids especially need this! it was so cool just to feel all the positive energy! we all have so much we can learn from kids! this is why i love being a teacher!

in other news.... =) i've taken up crochet. it's one of the gayest things i've ever done, but i completely love it! it's actually something i've always wanted to do. when i was really young, my mom bought me some yarn and a hook, but i couldn't really do much.... a few weeks ago, nick and i were in a hobby store and i kept toying with the idea of trying it again. with a little encouragement, i bought a book, some yarn and a hook. i played around for a bit and got the hang of it. i made a glasses case and dish towels. i'm currently working on a huge afghan. it's really cool to watch it grow.

and i have to tell you that my favorite cd at the moment is pink's i'm not dead. i love her! i love her songs! i love her messages! somewhere inside me, there's someone similar. my current favorite song from the album is "i got money now". love it, love it, love it!!!

pay it forward.