okay, girls. the weather's been awesome lately. fall's my new favorite season, even though winter's just around the corner.

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Alonso's Makeover

This is the most fun I've had in awhile!

can't wait to get to heaven

i finished up can't wait to get to heaven last nite. i totally suggest it! it's a wonderful book that makes you feel all gooey inside. i think it helped me look forward to lying down in the evenings for reading time. there's no reason you'd have to read the prequel, standing inside the rainbow, first.

now i must go touch myself and stuff.

i used to be so hott.

the weekend

i was sooo happy just because yesterday was friday. we're at the point in the school year when the kids start being comfortable with their new teachers, and the teachers are feeling like they're getting to know their new students. the first few weeks of school are always a bit shaky because, for most of these kids, i'm the first male teacher they've ever had, so they're, like, scared of me. now they see that i'm not the dominator, things are starting to get a little more laid back in the classroom. and i appreciate it. and i've just had enough school in my life to begin appreciating the time i'm not at school.

it was a perfect early autumn afternoon when i pulled out of the parking lot at school. i drove home with my windows down, listening to some really cool music. it was quite the enjoyable experience because everything has been going wonderfully at school. and the temperature was perfect!

then i got home, and a couple things sparked some thoughtitude. but in reality, it was only one thing - small to some, i'm sure - that really burnt my biscuits.

i need to design my life so everyday, all day, ends up like the day described at the beginning of this post. =) and some choices must be made.

living it

today i thought i'm living my dream. for the longest time, becoming a teacher was so important to me. and now i am a teacher. and i love being a teacher. i'm proud of being a teacher. i'm proud to be an elementary teacher in the public school system.

but there's more i want to reach for. i want a home of my own. i want a child. children would be better, just because being an only child has its pitfalls. i'm going to adopt a baby girl from china. in moses's lifetime. her name's going to be evelyn elizabeth. we'll either call her evie or lizzie.

that's the direction i'm headed.

from under the pink

i wish tori and i were talking about the same thing.

number one is don't touch my shit when you don't have permission to do so. and you don't. so don't. and don't goddamned make it so fucking obvious.

maybe i've been a little upset about our non-evolving friendship.

you look at others as beauty without end, so why can't you do that for yourself?

i saw that i already knew that if you feel it, you need to deal with it. oprah.

it's sad that adults lie to themselves so easily.

i wish the world's population (probably especially here in the good ole USA) understood the simple fact that life ain't easy. pills don't make it easy. pills don't make you happy. you make that call, motherfucker.

they prescribe medicine so motherfucking easily because it's about money.

money equals power. that's what man-kind has been questing for since s/he first took in air.

kids are the world's future. they're not extensions of their over-bearing parents. i'm sick of parents who don't understand that fucking shit. i'm sick of parents who make excuses, not boundaries. i'm sick of parents who don't realize they're raising an individual. i'm sick of families being so goddamned tribal.

i'm sick of people who don't want something better for themselves. because it's work. and, god bless it, no one should have to work. forget the fucking fact that the world'll stop spinning if we all stop working.

i hate and i hate everything about you.

i want:

• to be encased in a plastic box with shades that are encased between the double panes.
• peace
• love
• challenge
• life
• family
• family
• family
• family

i'm disappointed at the direction this world is going.

i love and respect my new colleague because she owns her actions. she is in charge. she's the one at the helm. she chooses.

it's not some magical, ellusive chance.

i'm tired of "home" being used in a totally different context.

i'm fucking sick of "poor me".