chinese food review

evenings i'm always so tired from making it through the day. it's more draining to deal with the adults than it is to deal with the kids. in fact, the worst of kids always gives a little more than he takes. you can't say that of most adults.

anyway, the new school year is off to a pretty nice start. this year, i'm doing something different with writing. i went to a workshop that showed me the probable value in just getting the kids to write everyday, while "toying" with different aspects of the writing process. that should carry over to my own writing, which i do very little of these days.

i'm thinking again about discipline...about "toying" with different aspects of writing everyday...about exercising everyday. i'm sure that beau wouldn't complain too much about a trip to the cemetary every evening.

that'd help with the exhaustion-thing, too, i'm sure. my newish christian friend keeps telling me about approval addiction, but who the fuck doesn't have a goddamned, mutherfucking addiction to approval? ain't it almost a natural part of who we are? afterall, what the fuck happens to babies that don't receive approval? they fucking die! i'm not sure.

i feel some relevance in it, but i'm too tired to explore. let's explore excuses then. excuses to live, to breathe, to fuck, to eat, to rest, to drive, to teach, to be fucked, don't we all have excuses?

and prejudices. i cannot hate patricia heaton because she's such a motherfucking conservative piece of shit, can i? what the motherfuck does it do to enhance my life or the life of others?

i think i'm going to buy rosi o's new book when it comes out on october 2. i should be richish by then anyway. then i can afford shelby. and my new car. not really. my plan is also to become a bit more of a responsible adult anyway. responsible adults save for rainy days. and snowy days. and non-perfect days.

shelby had vagina surgery last tuesday. i meant to tell you that, but i was too lazy. or too tired. or too full of excuses. her stitches come out next tuesday. she's cute as fuck. beau got his mustache removed, and he's being annoying right now. he keeps barking out the window and stuff.

i need a new book to read. i need to locate my mother effing i pod. well. i need to go participate.

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sad news

one of my best friends just called me about a student i have this year. his mom was killed in a car accident yesterday evening. i can't even fathom what that has to be like for a fourth-grader. i feel so heavy with thinking and emotion... Continue reading →

recommended!

i highly recommend the movie, hairspray! we saw it this past weekend, and i have to say that it's the best movie i've seen in a really long time! yes, i said the best! we were a little leary about the remake of a classic, but the new version takes nothing away from the old, and it stands quite nicely on its own two feet! the casting was perfect: michelle pfeiffer and queen latifah were FIERCE! zac efron was DREAMY! john travolta was PHENOMENAL! nikki blonsky was PERFECT! ...and it was great to see a big portion of the original cast make cameos...even john waters! go see it! now! Continue reading →

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R.I.P.

ZCF

April 15, 1937 - July 15, 2007

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I think we choose peace. In the middle of hell, we can still feel peace, if we choose to do so. And we try really hard. That's all. For now. =) Continue reading →

Rehab

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mylastname

Today—yesterday, really—has been an interesting day.

I found out that mylastname should not be my last name. I'm pretty sure that it should be Johnson, instead. I think I may have mentioned that I've really gotten into genealogy this summer? Well, it turns out that one of my great-grandmothers really liked the wang. She had kids by AT LEAST four different men! ...And this was between 1900 and about 1918. I probably shouldn't make her out to be such a trollop since I never knew the woman. I'm sure that she had her reasons, though—as most people do.

Here's the story, in case you're interested: Around 1900, she married a guy name Elihu mylastname, and they had a daughter. (My great-grandmother was only 16 at this time.) They were divorced, and Elihu had married another child (who was only 13 and pregnant at the time of marriage) around 1905. My great-grandmother then kept her married name until she married again around 1915. In the meantime, she had (at least) three other children—one of whom happened to be my grandpa. Since her last name was still mylastname, that's the last name my grandpa got. Through family "whispers", I've now learned that my grandpa's father's last name was actually Johnson. I have the "Johnson" (LOL) narrowed down, now, to about five or six lads. Anyway... I think it's rather interesting to think that my last name probably really is (or really should be) Johnson.

Also today—or yesterday—Nick and I decided to be really gay and highlight our hairs. Well, we went to Kroger and bought the shit, and we came back and started. When we were finished with Nick for the first time, he looked like a fucking zebra—no lie! I look like some poor white trash homo with a home-job dye-job. It's mothereffing disgusting!

Our home is now, also, officially a zoo. If you'd like to visit, contact me for admission rates! Last week while we were in Columbus, I bought a fiddler crab for our aquarium. A few days later, while researching correct care for fiddler crabs, I found that they are not supposed to be kept fully immersed...and they're not supposed to be kept in freshwater. So I headed out to the pet store and bought the supplies to set up our 10-gallon tank for our crab. While I was there, I discovered that they also had fiddler crabs—and these were set up in the correct way! ...Except they didn't have brackish water in their tank, which is another tale, but anyway.... I bought three of their female fiddler crabs for my male fiddler crab, but when I arrived at home, I discovered that he'd left for crab heaven. So now the three lezzies are alone in the tank, and they're just dying for some big crab wang. I'll have to make another purchase soon. It'd be neat if they came in all different colors, wouldn't it?

Oh! Back to the zoo-thing: We have the three fiddler crabs, a 55-gallon tank full of various fish, a 5-gallon tank with a goldfish, two hamsters, two cats, and two dogs. It's neatish. I like having them all!

Also! Yay! I finished up my first graduate-level course at the end of last month, and I earned an A! That makes me smile. I'm now taking my second course, and I have only eight more to go after this one until I have my Master's! Then it's off to PhD school. You can call me Doc Johnson!

Later, y'all!

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High Tide

We found him on the beach this evening. He washed up in high tide. Tomorrow we're going jet skiing. I'll post pics if I'm able to take any! =)

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Tybee

We're having an awesome time...again! You really have to visit, if you haven't already done so. Even if you have been here before, it's a great place to be. Today we did a dolphin tour, and we saw many, many dolphins. The last picture above is three dolphins we saw on the tour, in case you needed help in deciphering the picture. While on the tour, we also saw Sandra Bullock's house. Maybe I'll post it for you later, cuz I know you're dying to see it, and you're jealous as hell that I saw it! We're thinking of going either parasailing or jet skiing tomorrow!

Like, our house is fucking fantastic! I want it. It has four bedrooms and three and a half baths. Nick and I have the master suite, and we have a jacuzzi tub in our private bath. We also have a private balcony. I think I would have been happy with any of the rooms, though. This house is beautiful! Hardwood floors downstairs. All stainless appliances in the HUGE kitchen. We've totally been enjoying cooking for everyone. On Sunday, we made our traditional southern breakfast: biscuits and gravy, sausage, scrambled eggs, and orange juice. And we ate it at a huge table for ten. There are ten of us here. Did I mention that?

I am missing my Shelby Sue and Cephie Marie, though. It seems that they're doing well with my aunt though. She took a vacation week off work just so she could watch them for us. Apparently, they chase her cats upstairs.

Tonite we had pizza. It was really, really good. I am sitting at the dining table drinking Smirnoff Twisted V (Watermelon), which I recommend, and Nick is sitting beside me playing some fucking game. My cousin is sitting in a chair watching some Lifetime movie. My Mama and Papa are in bed. The kids are in bed. Michelle is on the front porch....masturbating, probably.

Okay. Did I tell you that I got a super new cell phone, too? Nick and I did, like, a family plan and we got a really great deal. Our phones are MP3 players and cameras and shit. Okay. Nite, nite. Luff, luff!

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shelby spoke her first words today. seriously, we hadn't heard her bark at all until today. she has a new game she plays with beau. she gets under the couch and dares beau to come for her. he can't fit under the couch like she can, so she just laughs (barks) at him. it's so fucking cute i can't stand it!

today my dear friend christopher helped me begin to put together my family tree. it's rather exciting, as i already have lots of info. plus, he's going to help me find more! thanks a zillion christina aguilera!

that and school's out, school's out! teacher let the monkeys out! summer, here i come.


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Shelby Sue

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chocolate

i had another revealing dream last nite, one that witnessed to what i really feel inside. i saw it on oprah, and i had an a-ha moment in my sleep. i think dreams are our feelings ripped apart down to their bare bones. what i felt in my dream is hiding under layers of numb. then i had another dream this morning after nick left, and i'm now considering another probable truth.

i have so fucking much to do, and i hate having so much shit to do on a day off. i have to wash bed clothes. i have to dry colored clothes. i have to put that shit away. i have to water the plants on the front porch. i have to clean the litterbox. i have to work on a couple posts for my master's work. i have to write a paper that's due tomorrow. i have to do lots and lots of end-of-the-year stuff because this coming week is the last week of school! =)

exactly two weeks from now, we'll be driving in our cars on our way to sa-va-nnah! driving with our friends on our way to sa-va-nnah! that happy makes me! Continue reading →

Beau's Little Sister

Shelby. =)

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yay!

I have officially submitted my first APA-formatted paper to the professor of my first class of my Master's program. Procrastination slowed me down some, but I made it! Now I just have to get ready to teach the children this week.... (Only two full weeks left!)

What else? My big accomplishment this morning was getting some blood work taken care of. My first doctor's appointment in years took place in March, and my doctor prescribed a couple medications for a couple issues, and she also ordered some blood work. I put the blood work off until this morning, and I am so glad it's over! My follow-up doctor's appointment (to see how the meds are working, etc.) is scheduled for next week so I couldn't very well put off the blood work for much longer any way.

Now I am going to do some housework and perhaps fix dinner, if I can find something fixable. Until next time: Touch yourself lots! Continue reading →

i'm back

okay.... i got ahold of one of my moms who's also a very good friend of my very good friend, and she's on her way to columbus. she's hoping to get to see our friend. =) it sounds like she's going to be okay. she's recovered the memory she apparently lost shortly after the accident, and i think she's about to be released from the icu. anyway.... i know that if you're reading this, you probably don't know her, but please think good thoughts for her. she's a really awesome human being who's doing countless things to make the world a better place. Continue reading →

OMG

i just sat down to write about my amazing progress, but i got sidetracked reading some of my very old posts. (someday i want to figure out my blogger "anniversary" date. it can't be too far away from ten years.) anyway.... my cell phone rang, and i didn't get to it in time to answer it (or else i didn't want to talk to the person who was calling) so the caller left a message. it was another teacher from my school, telling me that my very good friend fell while roller blading last nite and she fractured her skull. scary stuff. i need to try and find my friend's husband's cell number to see if a can get ahold of him to find out what's going on.

my accomplishments about which i was going to write seem to pale in the shadow of my dear friend's injury.

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Cephie Marie

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i don't ever recall having had a series of dreams that were thematically tied together as last nite's dreams were.

in my first dream, my (now-deceased) grandmother brought me (as a child) to my parents' home, but the home had been caught in the middle of renovation, and parts of the house was missing. i became very angry at my parents for providing such shoddy shelter, and so i ranted and i raved.

in my second dream, i was again a child and my mom was just returning from a trip she'd taken by herself. she returned with long, black hair. (my mom has ever had long hair.) she had returned with an altered appearance. her lip and her eyebrow had been pierced, and she alluded to the fact that she had other peircings as well. it also seemed that she'd been having some sort of lesbian love affair that had percipitated her evolution into this new person. again, i was very angry at my mom for not being the person i needed her to be.

in my third dream, i was once again an adult. nick and i lived in a different apartment than we do now, but we still had a roommate. i don't remember who the roommate was, but nick was telling this roommate all about the day he'd just had, and he was showing our roommate artifacts from the day, while not paying any attention to me. i got pissed off and locked myself into the bathroom. and i'm not sure if this dream continued as a dream of a dream or if it was just a dream. that is, it don't know if i dreamed i was having a nightmare or if i was really having a nightmare. but in any case, i was trying to yell in my sleep, and i was thinking that nick would wake me up from the nightmare, but he never did.

i had a fourth dream that may or may not have been a part of my third dream, but i'm not going to mention it here because it has the potential to do harm.

of course, the theme i'm talking about that united all these dreams was anger. but i think there's a bigger, more covert theme as well, and this is a lesson that life has been trying to teach me for awhile now. we cannot (and should not) depend on others to complete our emotional and spiritual lives. that is, we can't allow our emotional and spiritual well-being to be(come) dependent upon the actions of others.

in other news, i am so happy that we have only three full weeks of school left. we have vacation coming up shortly after school ends! and i'm ready to use the summer to work on my master's, as well as to make plans for our next school year. we tested for most of the week last week, and we took a really great field trip yesterday. it was really cool to have nick along, too! =) (i love my hookie pook!) one of the parents unexpectedly bought me an eco-sphere, and i absolutely love it! cephie got a haircut last week. he looks like such a gay little man, too! i love my cephie! i'm going to go bathe him in little bit. i'll post a pic of him and his new haircut soon!

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mizz amy winehouse

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