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P!nk:  ever wonder 'bout what he's doin'?

Me:  no.  it involves his mama's vagina, for sure. he either is twiddling it, wanting to be back inside it, or wanting to be it. 

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Last nite was the first time the depression has crept into my dreams. I dreamed of my mom, of the passage of time. My doctor prescribed Seroquel and last nite I took my first dose. Today I am extremely dizzy and tearful and ready to pop off at any moment. I've never taken such a strong drug. This morning I took Limictal as well, as it was prescribed. I prefer recreationals to how I feel right now.  Continue reading →

I think the thing I miss most about being in a relationship is having someone beside me in bed. My dogs are lovely, but they're not comforters; they're comfortees. Comfortors?

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Wandering vs. Wondering

I absolutely love this time of year!  And I'm sitting outside, listening to the crickets, looking at the stars, thinking about all I've done to better my home, and I'm doing this ALONE. And while sitting here, a question slid into my mind. Do I really feel that I don't deserve companionship, and I think that feeling is rooted deeply into my being. And I've got to fix that. I think that's why I'm such a loner. Because I feel that I don't deserve someone beside me. That I don't deserve. That I'm not good enough. And I am. Just the way I am. But I'm evolving. Tomorrow I'll be a better version myself. I will.  Continue reading →

i'm just floating

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the church was cool inside. 

that's the only part of me new novel that i have written.  it's the first sentence.  : )  Continue reading →